adaptation~

as usual..

after coming from a long holiday,

it is difficult for me to start again..

i'm felt very sleepy throughout the day..

really tired..

although only sitting and listening..

why my body can't adapt to it?

i felt less energetic..

besides,

i started to cough and having wheezing again...

this really makes me feel tired..

but..

i reluctant to take any puff of ventolin..

unless it is very severe causing me dyspnea..

every time i meet patient,

i always get some infection..

i'm sick of all this..

Alhamdulillah..

today i managed to 'perform' 2nd case for forensic..

thank you Allah..

apart from that,

tomorrow i need to present UGIB

it seems Allah hear my prayer..

i wish i can present history and PE part..

after 'undian',

i really got that..

Ya Allah..

i really feel you near and beside me..

how grateful i am..

Ya Allah..

i'm hoping for something better for tomorrow..

hope everything will fine..

thank you Allah..

new life begin~

today is the 1st day of surgery posting..

hoping for the goodness..

i hope everything go smoothly..

welcome to real world of medicine!!

a quote from my supervisor..

this week i'm very tired..

even weekend we still need to come to ward round..

and today i got fever..

with headache,myalgia,arthralgia, chills and rigor..

i feel very terrible..

and again i develop wheezing during ward round with my supervisor..

this is the second time she heard me wheezing

and straight away she diagnosed me to have bronchial asthma..

and i worried..

i can't study..

with this pain all over..

new posting..new spirit..kehkeh

starting on monday..

i started new posting ' internal medicine'..

during 3rd year, i had this posting as my first posting as i entering clinical years..

so, it was a long time ago..

there is a lot to revise and improve..

but i really love this posting..

i dunno why (according to my mentor,there is shouldn't be " i dunno why",u need to find why...hehe)

this week is dermatology posting..

well..at first a bit nervous..

that's ur fault becoz u din't revise it..

hahaha..but actually i did revise and fall asleep..hehe

that's always happened..

the first day started with quiz..

hahaha..looks like i dunno anything..

but surprisingly..actually i know how to answer the question..

i can shout out some of the answer..

it is not i want to show that i'm intelligent..

but it just what i know..

it is becoz some people will get irritate if i can answer all question..

sorry,i dun want to show off..

i just want to boost my confident level..

then i went to clinic..

usually clinic is consider best if u got the right doctor and the right patient + the right partner (your coursemate)..hehe..

this clinic really makes me feel maybe i should consider dermatology for my master..hehe

really happy got to see what i learn in books..

1)pruritus

2)discoid eczema

3)tinea capitis

4)impetigo

5)plague psoriasis

6)cutaneous vasculitis

7)scabies

8)acne vulgaris

9)fungal infection on web space

and the best ever thing is the doctor willing to teach us..

thanks a lot doctor..

the next day..

i went to dermatology ward..

clerk and examine patient with pustular psoriasis..

so sorry for her..

i empathy with her..

then u should thank to Allah u still healthy..

the disease not only affecting her health, but also her quality of life..

on wednesday..

i went to daycare to observe and learn about phototherapy..

too high tech..but just learn the basic and purpose..hehe

then i went to sexually transmitted disease clinic (STD)

u will be surprised as STD showing rising trend..

fortunately i managed to see one patient

she had genital wart due to HPV infection..

the doctor also teach us a lot..

thank u so much..

on thursday..

we had tutorial on management of common skin disease

really enjoy it..

getting to know more about dermatology..

then we have presentation of long cases..

a lot knowledge i gained..

today i dun have anything..

and i din't go to HKL..

becoz according to my schedule,

my group didn't have anything today..

yes i can go if i want..

but i dun like to disturb others people opportunity to learn..

just follow ur schedule~

hehe..in conclusion..

i really love this week..

plus another thing make me happy..

i have new study group which is very fun and interesting..

i dunno why when i with them,

learning process become more easier and fun..

not like my previous study group..

which i feel very stress and tense..

my current study group really make me motivated to study..

love them so much~

unfortunately..he died..D.I.D

dead in department..hahaha

so sorry..

patient is 59 y/o,malay

presented with palpitation, chest heaviness..

currently having SOB..

he is on antihypertensive medication,statin and aspirin..

we witness him collapse..

ECG show that ventricular fibrillation..

i'm the one who supposed to do CPR..

CPR was done quickly..

unfortunately, shock was not given..

we getting confused..

because heart rate short bradycardia,

but the rhythm is irregular..

team leader argue with the person who supposed to give shock..

hahaha..i also dunno what to say..

since i'm not the dominant one,

no one will listen to what i'll saying..

but i can't blamed any other member..

after one week of raya holiday..

everybody seem to forgot how to manage it..

sorry prof..we make u disappointed:(

mega code~

tomorrow we have an exam..+ OSCE..

but..i dun really study..huhu..

why i'm so lazy..

i'm tired..

i sleep all the day..

it's not that i dun study at all..

but i study only a few topic..

i feel that i wasted my time..

but somehow i feel glad..

becoz i remember all what i study even though it's only a few..

huhu..sometimes i lostttttt....

i dunno what to study..

sometimes too much too study..

but i dun have time..

hahaha..when u are laz..

a lot of excuses will appear..

plz la..dun keep finding excuses for urself..hehe

try hard for tomorrow..

although the marks is not really affect ur overall performance..

but dun forget it is for ur satisfaction~

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