welcome to real world of medicine!!

a quote from my supervisor..

this week i'm very tired..

even weekend we still need to come to ward round..

and today i got fever..

with headache,myalgia,arthralgia, chills and rigor..

i feel very terrible..

and again i develop wheezing during ward round with my supervisor..

this is the second time she heard me wheezing

and straight away she diagnosed me to have bronchial asthma..

and i worried..

i can't study..

with this pain all over..

oh Allah..

i'm glad..alhamdulillah..

afterall..

i feel really grateful that finally..

i found one study group that really convenient to me..

really love the study group..

i dun have any pressure or stress to come to study group..

but i feel more excited to come..

thanks friends for inviting me to join ur study group..

really benefit to me..

enjoy study together..

everyone seems completing each other..

no more scare to present..

they will accept what you present..

they will correct u if u are wrong..

the best is they will never let you down..

instead of it..

they will make u more understand the concept behind..

i fall in love with my study group..

INSPIRED BY...

today i accompany my fren to meet our previous supervisor during 3rd year..

he is a vascular surgeon..

i dunno why i feel really inspired after listening to what he said..

he ask me..

how about your preparation for professional exam march next year?

i answer..

so far so good..everything is fine,but sometimes feel stress..

then he replied..

i think it is very easy for u to pass..u are so clever..i never anticipate any problem with u..so,you should pass the exam..

wahhh..i'm so suprised..

he is very confident with me..

while i'm not confident with myself..

there is someone really confide with me..

make me think again..

i should be more confident..

thank you for inspiring me..

weekend..

1) last friday had really productive day..PRHO in ward medical 1..but very fun with our supervisor..

2) last oncall was very terrible..we tried to clerk patient..but unfortunately the list that doc given us is not updated..last minute only we know that patient actually in the ward..hurm..sad..after a good day,we had been accused to be lazy becoz didn't managed to clerk the patient..

3) we had jamuan hari raya in our kafe..while other people went with their beautiful dress, we went there with white coat and full of sweat..too tired..we ate till full..

4)i went to putrajaya..but before that buy sup meletop for my sis..and my bro buy otak2..quite delicious..

5) i slept till the morning..woke up and breakfast nasi lemak with nescafe tarik..

6) i help my mother fried "kuih telinga keling" or what so ever the name..cute and tasty..

7) cook for lunch..fried chicken only..haha

8) in the evening, sent my bro back to UM..also took saiful along with us..

9) at night after maghrib, went to alamanda with my family..my lil sis wanna buy hp..then when to carrefour and MPH..

10) very hungry..went to taman warisan pertanian to eat..but really hate it..almost all food not there..only litle left..

11) back to home and sleep..

12) had a bad nightmare..

13) decide not to go to my frenz wedding..becoz my aunt also doing kenduri..

at the end of the day..it seems that i did't touch books..haha..

plz dun regret..

after a hectic weekdays,

i think i should give myself a good rest..

when you dun have the spirit~

i should say this is very bz week..

i'm tired..

oncal EOD..(although not tired like real doctor)

but i'm still very2 tired..

i need some rest..

but i need to study for the learning issues and for each question that i couldn't answer..

i feel really tired..

to the extend BURNOUT..

last week also oncall EOD..

plz la..as a student, there are a lot of other things that i need to do..

becoz too tired..

i fall sick..

the result is i can't focus to teaching..

becasue i feel malaise,headache and low grade fever with a lot of sputum production..

but i can't take MC..

after almost 5 years in medical school..

i realized something..

medical student always sick..

but sometimes they still need to come to the class even though they have MC..

pityful right?

i always talk to myself..

at the end..

dun forget that we also human..

sometimes i need to force myself to come to the class..

i still remember the time i got viral fever..

imagine that u have all bodyache..

very painful if u want to move..

but i still need to come..

because we got exam..

doctor difficult to reschedule the exam if i absent even with the MC..

i dun deny that medical is very tough..

this is only the beginning..

there is still long journey for u to go through..

plz..be tougher..