Anhedonia..

i dunno why..

lately i felt really difficult to start study..

blurrrr...

looks like no guide..

and i dun feel the need to study..

owwhh..this is so bad..

why should i feel this?

i should think positively..

or should i go out?

i felt like trapping in this place..

i can't focus on my study..

although this is more relaxing week..

i still felt my life is miserable..

everyday need to get ready to be scolded..

although i already prepared mentally..

i still felt down after being scolded..

then i need time to recover again..

same cycle goes on everyday..

but,i love yesterday session..

specialist ward round with dr suraya..

i already felt that she will pick me for short case..

yeah..it's true..

A 28 years old lady primigravida at 33 weeks POA with contraction pain and per vaginal bleeding..plz examine her abdomen..

i'm glad that dr nasir advice makes my examination smoother..

but dr suraya ask me..

"can u feel the baby if u palpating like that?"

with full of confidence..i answered "yes"

yeah..it looks like i'm doing very light palpation..

but i really can feel it..

i present my finding to her..

then she examine the patient to confirm my finding..

it is correct!!!!

i'm glad..

becoz of that thing,

i can wipe off everything that happened in the morning..

at least there is something that make me feel i'm not that bad..

during discussion,i'm also glad that i can answer some of her question..

thanks to orange ward during my 3rd year..

i learnt so many thing during grand ward round..

and the more happy things,

i can remember it well till now..

thanks so much prof zaleha,prof azlin,prof paul and dr amelia..

i love orange team very well..