no sense of belonging~

ermm...should i say it directly?

well..after almost a year with them..

i still dun have sense of belonging to them..

yeah it true that i'm only belong to myself..

but afterall..we still dun develop "rapport"

and afterall..i feel it is useless..

how should i say?

sometimes i feel it is really wasted..

i know it is good to revise all the knowledge that u have..

but if everytime is repeatition,

somehow i felt very boring and dun want to listen anymore..

it is true that sometimes i just skip it..

but most of the time i really can't make it..

it is not benefit for me although it gives benefit to others..

i dun feel free to talk..

you say that we all like "family"

but in reality..you make the gap..

until this moment..

i feel "detach" from u all..

not even attaching..

should i continue?or should i stop?

if i stop, there will be BIG controversy..

my story will be HOT as usual..

u all loves to talks about me..

eventhough u not mention..

but be caution..i can read and know what is in ur heart and ur mind..

each one of u..no one can escape..hahaha..

but becoz i can feel it..i feel uncomfortable to all of u..

u look really hypocrite to me..

dun pretend!!!

i really hate that..

i'm sorry that i know u are pretending..